I Was Dead Before My Heart Stopped Beating

The world is black, so chard, black burned up bits falling off and end up in the depths of space. The sun isn’t bright anymore, its dimming almost like a light bulb out of light. You would think this was the end the world but its only my head.

This feeling is in my bones, it sleeps in my bone morrow at night and it eats at my brain when hungry, I cant fight it off, I don’t know how. I use to push it but it only came back harder and more violent as it does. Insanity isn’t the word to describe it, the will only flatter it but perhaps something like insanity but untreatable.

Its almost like a demon resides in my soul and lingers and lingers and sometimes smirks when it see my face in the mirror, sometimes that’s not me. The demon brings upon my negativity, its scares me in my sleep and it makes me not want to sleep at all anymore.

I lived with this feeling for years and every year it grows. Its like I’m two people except the good one is losing and I am slowly falling and falling into this black hole that simply doesn’t end.

You know it would ruin everyone else and it would even ruin you but I know one day I will win or I will lose, either way, I have been dead for many years. I have been dead and you never even knew it.

VIA: S&SS