She Is So Vicious

5 years ago I was introduced to someone, I was currently in grade 8 at the time and I was also big headed and playing as many girls as I could so being introduce to this one girl was a plus for me though I didn’t do anything of it surprisingly cause something inside of me new she was better then me, I mean not that I was beating myself up for not being good enough I just didn’t want to be a player and hurt her, I knew she was special. Years passed and we never spoke, I moved on to high school and she had one year left in her Jr High and I thought ‘maybe that was the end of that’, to be honest she was always in the back of my head so i felt that maybe she wouldn’t be in my life again and I should stop thinking about her.
Fast forward it another year where my grade was 11 and I was coming off a bad break up, not really wanting to open up and care about much people, until she was introduced into my life a second time and this time, I wasn’t big headed, this time i wasn’t a player, I knew what I wanted but i didn’t know how to get it, I was scared to reach out and also scared to open up and make a new friend so sadly a second introducing faded into the light and nothing came of it.
She started dating this boy for a long while and in the middle of there relationship I realized I needed to do something, I know she was dating but I knew I needed to do ‘something’…unfortunately I did nothing, I sat there and did nothing. A year passed and I stopped caring or at least tried to, we spoke a few times, hung out around school but I closed myself off to her cause I knew if I were to open up, with her dating, I would be let down.5 years in the making, were both single and were both looking, Iv always been attracted to her and maybe 3rd time is a charm to actually doing something. You know it was always something that kept us apart, either I was a player or she was dating but the point is, after 5 years of doing nothing, I’m ready to do something.
They say, there is that person out there for everyone and maybe they are right and maybe there wrong, I don’t know but what I do know is I haven’t felt this certain about extending my heart out there like that for a couple of years now, even when I told myself it was alright but this time I’m ready, this time I’m ready to open up and give her my heart. I feel so certain about this, so sure, so content and I’m ready. Its time….

VIA: S&SS