Hello world, tonight is my birthday and I am not just saying this so you can say “Aw I didn’t know, happy birthday” or “hope you have a good birthday” cause I know my birthday is already planned out and I don’t mean that in a ‘its in my daily planner’ kinda planned out but perhaps if I meant to have a good birthday it will happen. I am only throwing a party tomorrow on Friday the 13th and may I add that was not my intention, I almost canceled the party when I found out it was on the thirteenth, cause its not good planning something on Friday the 13 by accident, that’s when Jason Vorhees comes out of camp Crystal Lake and stabs me cause the birthday boy always HAS to die in the movie first.
I am finally 19 and I guess I have been waiting for this moment since I was Zero or maybe since I found out the legal drinking age in PEI (and 88.7 percent of Canada). I feel free now, I am of age to do anything in this lovely country, maybe I’ll buy liquor for random 12 year old’s just for the shit of it. But I was thinking about what has been the the only age I have been looking forward to and its been 19 and perhaps it would have be 21 if I was living in America but I guess my goal to 19 is up so I have decided to have a new goal age and its gonna be 80 cause when I turn 80 I will use the ‘senior citizen’ label to my advantage and use those electric car machines at Walmart so I don’t have to walk and I’ll steal stuff and even if they say something I’ll pretend that I have forgotten where I am.
I guess besides that, I have been waiting for a new door to open, someone new to come into my life and I suppose if you wait for stuff, you normally don’t get it soo lets pretend I didn’t say that.
Over the last month though I have been battling hard with my demons and my negativity, its been a dark time for me and yet a light time at the same time but some part of me wants to hide away in a forest from this negative world we live in and I probably said that already, its just that this world is starting to brain wash everyone and I don’t not want to be one of those people so I am fighting for my sanity.
Like I said above, its my nineteenth birthday which means Iv lived on this earth for 19 years and yet I still feel 10 and I wish I was still 10 with the looks of a 19 year old but I am gonna push the negative earth aside and really fight for my positivity back cause its been lacking and I want that son of a bitch back.
As I leave you tonight in your houses with you trying to decode my message, I want you to enjoy the sweet tunes of Bangs
Its my birthday bitch, come to the movies with me.
VIA: S&SS
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