{In}sanity Is {In}

The stares come from every angle, like I’m a fucking alien or something, maybe its my skinny jeans or my sense of style but off the bat, I get alienated and whenever that chance comes when I don’t get alienated, that’s just the person interested in the idea of me but I don’t know. Why cant I fit in like everyone else, I try to and I have to drink to fit in but I know I shouldn’t have to and even if I don’t drink, I end up feeling like I stick out like a sore thumb.

I feel like I don’t deserve to have anyone important in my life, I guess I always felt this way and maybe cause its how Iv always been treated, just pushed away like I am not like everyone else. To be honest, I don’t feel like everyone else, I almost feel like my own kind of species which sounds like insanity creeping threw my head but I cant seem to empathize with much people around this place, I mean most of me doesn’t care about much people nor do I feel like I have to make friends and socialize just at a party.

I guess people would say to me that I dont take chances and maybe I dont (anymore) but like I said, people never took chances on me, it was always only for there benefit, so you cant expect me to let anyone in my life when all I ever got was shit on and walked on and not really have anyone I can trust.

I guess my problems will be solved when I can fly myself to mars cause then I wouldn’t feel like alien.

VIA: S&SS