Its been a while since I wrote a best ever, I guess I haven’t really been sane enough to do so and to be honest I couldn’t tell you why. I mean part of me thinks I am actually in the process of going insane but I am not sure cause usually people who go insane don’t realize there insane so maybe I should turn a blind eye and pretend I am not insane so then I can put a label on how Iv been feeling lately.
Besides that whole ordeal, lots of good shows and concerts coming up, like September 26, Marilyn Manson goes to Moncton and its almost mind blowing cause I remember back in the day Canada wouldn’t allow his concerts to happen here, so the thought of him coming even close to where I live is very mind blowing. When I was growing up I would look to him, which sounds weird I guess but I knew he was always different, he didn’t look like your normal rock star and I liked that, I like that he would stand alone because it made me realize, if this guy can look like that, have talent and have tons of fans, then I could do something like that too..you know stand out. I read his book twice, I know every word to his song and whenever I would do a music project on a musician in school, it would always be him, he just showed me ‘being different is good’.
2009 has been a grim year though, I want it to end. The 09 reaper has claimed the lives of many famous people, such as Michael Jackson, Ed McMahon and just recently Patrick Swayze, just to name a few. To be blunt I tell myself to be positive all the time but I swear the world plays tricks with you, its like the world doesn’t want you to be positive but I have a strong will and I will fight the negativity of the world.
I always found the phrase “when one door closes, another one opens” very odd, almost an eary kinda odd and you are probably wondering why. You know I told you I would spill the truth and not keep you hanging this year and that’s what I am gonna do. Which takes us back to why that phrase is eary to me. I don’t look to have friends anymore, like I want friends but I don’t look to have 10 so I go one at a time and it usually takes a lot of time to build on that friendship thus making it end quickly (bad luck I have) but the point I’m trying to make is that, I like to have at least one person I can depend on and most cases they don’t understand me (considering I may have gone insane) so that friendship I was trying to build ends. Sometime after that, out of the blue, a new friendship rises up from the water (or perhaps an old one) but a new door always ends up opening, its kinda like this is all planned out in a game of life.
While were on the topic of new friendships, I do officially believe in fate and Iam not gonna tell you why cause don’t wanna jinx anything but something happened to me, which showed me clear, up front in the face that fate exists in this world. Whether there doors opening and closing in my life, this is something I am gonna cherish and maybe one day share with you. Fate is real and sometimes its not on my side but this time..it is.
VIA: S&SS
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