Goodbye: Just Jay

I was speaking with a friend a couple weeks ago and she told me “you don’t exactly know who isn’t important in your life until they leave” and that right there hit me cause i met someone who was important to me, i mean she felt important to me but over the last couple months we have been fading fast and maybe its fate and maybe I’m letting it happen but i know if they were important they will show up in my life again.

I will never forget her though. She has this laugh, where she tries not to show her teeth (not that she need braces) but in which case i am always stunned by her beautiful smile so i keep staring & sometimes when she curls her hair a certain way she tends to resembles an actress where it makes my heart beat faster then normal. I remember one time we were walking and it wasn’t that cold out and i looked down at her hands and they were red, it kinda put a smile on my face weirdly enough, its just she seemed like a tough girl, not really caring about having cold hands.

You know she is probably the most intelligent person i know that was in my life, and that’s something else ill always remember.

Iv never had someone in my life before who felt so damn important to me like she did, her presence gave me the old grade 6 butterflies but i could still feel comfortable talking to her about anything and i wonder to myself; if she wasn’t important to me then i wonder whats it gonna be like when i do meet someone who becomes important to me.

The very first time i saw her, in the grocery story, as she walked away, i couldn’t stop staring, i mean it wasn’t a creepy stare but it was more like ‘i was in lust’ stare…anyways she had this walk and i don’t know if i was just imagining but as she walked away her blond hair swayed left and right and i realized at that moment that girl had to be in my life, there couldn’t be any ‘ifs’ ‘ands’ or ‘buts’ and i did just that, brought her in my life and now i am glad i did.

i don’t know if she was ever suppose to be important to me or if she was never even suppose to be my ‘Louis Lane’ but what I am sure about is that she made my heart smile, one too many occasions and you have to have skill to do that and she had skill, but with every beginning comes an ending, thus making this story finished.

The hero didnt die in this one though, he just gained more confident in himself.

VIA: S&SS