Hello World, Im Just Trying To Find Myself....

I dont exactly know where to start.
I guess could start at any point, in my life
but, i wanna focus on, this year.
2008.
Today i feel like im going insane,
like a virus eating my brain slowly
but surly.
As iam still stable for now.
I cant really pay too much attention to it,
cause then i literately feel like my insanity is growing faster
then before.

The public is so adoring,
while i just end up getting out in to the cold,
to numb whatever is going on, in my 'stable' mind.
I have been gathering my thoughts
and honestly what am getting out of it?
The more i gather, the more isolated id like to be.
This is the year i find myself.
2009.
I am gonna find myself eventually.